I wake up quite late than my usual rising. Said my prayers. Fixed my bed. Washed my face and brushed my teeth.
I went down for breakfast.
There’s a part of me struggling, trying to cope up with the atmosphere of the retreat. Well, I do love the silence; the quite atmosphere where you can hear the song of the bird and the rain typewriting in the roof. If my imagination works, I can even hear the gossip of the trees.
I hate to admit it, but my prayer time is consumed with watching the Amazing Spiderman. Sorry, I just get bored sometime.
Having consumed with boredom, I was tempted to ask God if He feels bored too?
A while ago, when I took my shower, I found myself in corollary with the cold water…until little by little I felt the warmth of the hot water gushing and racing down my toes.
I felt God enveloping me. I felt His warmth embrace.
Then, I, too was contaminated with His warmth.
God showers His love abundantly.
My Good Lord, you know that I love you. I have left everything- my family, friends, my dreams to follow you. Though following you entails pain and sacrifices, I still want and willing to risk my life for you.
My Good Lord, I am sorry for all the betrayals I’ve done. For not loving much, for being ungrateful, pessimistic and lukewarm. I am sorry for going back to me shell of small concerns and insecurities every time I get hurt.
My Good Lord, be patient with me. You know that I love you, and I know that your love is greater than mine. Help me to love like you do. To love whom you love and hate sin. Let me grow in your love. Amen.